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Pain [Jul. 12th, 2013|12:31 am]
[Current Location |Uxbridge, Glebe Rd, 19]

I am feeling inspired by a friend to post. Excuse me if I ramble.


So Rich started a new job and since then our daily routine has improved, he comes back from work earlier which means I finish work earlier where possible.  We eat earlier, meaning we have more time during evenings to do things, spend time with each other and I have more time on week nights than weekends for projects, which is an odd switch.  My energy levels have improved somewhat, I can stay up slightly later and I seem to have better quality sleep.  So all this sounds really positive right? Wrong...


One thing that appears to have got worse is my health, now this could be the time of year, the heat, change in diet but one thing is certain,  I am suffering more pain in the last few weeks and it is becoming more noticable. It is not every day and it is not as severe as it has been in the past as I am not clawing at carpets convincing someone not to call an ambulance.  - that was the case about 12 years ago....


I was diagnosed with Endometriosis at 21, but suffered with it since I was 15.  There is no cure, I have had LOTS of different treatments and after 2 laproscopys, numerous pills and a mini stroke in 2008 I found 1 that works for me the mirena coil.  I am on my second one and have an appointment 1 week from now for a review. 


My concern as always is this could be the beginning of a low patch which is only going to get worse, this worry in itself makes it worse.   I have not treated myself the best over the last few weeks, had bad food etc which does affect things.  I have suffered various pain over the last 19 years I would not wish on my worst enemy, I still lrp which is surprising and those who know me well, have seen me hobbling in the attempt to not let this stop me - whicn it won't.


I just cannot help thinking for right now, I could do with a crystal ball or someone to say, its understandable how I am feeling.  I do not want anyone to tell me it will get better as it might not, people suffer a lot worse than me and I do my best not to complain or use it as a call for attention or to my advantage, what will be will be.  I wish the doctors I saw were slightly more supportive and listened to what my symptoms are even if it is not related so I can get some advice on what to do for the best.


Is there a solution, consult with others who suffer, its tough as you may hear things you do not want to, it might be the best route. I did not know how this post would end up but I am glad this is out my head, it clearly was stuck in their as its taken no effort to write.  It feels like there is not natural way to end this, but you know what, that's okay.


[User Picture]From: jamie_wakefield
2013-07-12 07:26 pm (UTC)
Well done for sharing this. I have always been impressed with how you have coped with Endometriosis. Low patches happen and it is always worth speaking to a doctor if you have had a low mood for a while.

As a rule of thumb, if you are starting to worry about your mental health then it is time to see someone.

Lots of love.

Edited at 2013-07-12 07:27 pm (UTC)
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